Fertility Care

We have been going to fertility care for about a year now.  Every other day is a lab draw~either it is my potassium that is too low or my thyroid that is too high.  My progesterone and Estrogen levels have been pretty steady lately but I do take supplements for the both of them.  It sucks to be 33 and have a body that doesn't allow you to produce your own progesterone or estrogen.  My body produces very little amounts of each.  But the medication has helped a great deal.  It is amazing that it has been a year ago when Dale and I decided to start going to fertility care and see what our issues were.  We wanted to find out why we are having such a hard time conceiving.  We have been married for 10 years and no child, and we never used any birth control.  We have learned a lot from this process.  It is a longer process than IVF or other procedures that they offer, but this way we are getting my body ready to care and carry a baby for 9 months.    I am replenishing my body of what nutrients and vitamins that I am missing.  It is an exciting exciting time in our life.  I am not sure what the next chapter in our life consists of but, I am ready for the adventure!!

Young and Pregnant

So I found out yesterday, that my niece is 5 weeks pregnant.  I would be totally happy for her if she wasn't 19,  if she didn't just have a baby in October, and if she had her drivers licenses.  I know I am so judgmental.  This is family I am talking about.  It drives me crazy that at such a young age you have no other dreams than to raise children.  When I was 19, I was thinking of my future, and at that time children were not a part of it.  But now days, kids are raising kids, and it is heart wrenching. .
My nieces baby was born in October, and I have heard she doesn't take very good care of the child.  Which breaks my heart into pieces. I guess one baby is too much for her, why would she be even thinking about having another one?  She doesn't even have a job, and her husband works for 2-5 hours a day at a farm.  Not very financial for this kind of situation.  But who am I to judge.
I was talking to my sister in law, the mother of my niece, she told me that my niece miscarried in the beginning of February.  But she is already 5 weeks pregnant.  Amazing, when I went through my miscarriage I was devastated.  I cried all the time, the last thing I thought about was sex.  I was an emotional wreck, but I guess everyone takes emotional situations in different ways.  It  just amazes me that my niece, had no feelings about  the miscarriage at all, which completely tears out my heart, because I remember how I dealt with the same situation.
I just wish that lessons in life weren't so hard, and people would learn a valuable lesson, without hurting others.  I just sometimes don't understand, one person can take such a touchy topic and not have any feelings about it..  Because I will always remember the child that I lost, because I loved her/him even if I only knew them for a little while.

Overly Excited!

This is my year, this is my year...
We are going to have a fantastic year...
I can't wait....

Thankful

Today is Sunday and I have so many things to be thankful for:
I am thankful for being able to take naps on Sunday
I am thankful for spending time with family
I am thankful for all my blessing everyday
I am thankful we didn't get the 12 inches of snow that was predicted
I am thankful to live another day
I am thankful for my health and all my families health
I am thankful that United States has fertility clinics that the people who can't have children naturally have a chance
I am thankful that March is almost here
I am thankful that I am able to care for and love our pets
I am thankful that I got the opportunity to raise someone else's child
I am thankful that  one day I will be holding my child
I am thankful that I have a god that I believe in
I am thankful for my faith
I am thankful that I have a job when most of the country is out of work
I am thankful that I have some place warm to call home
What are you thankful for

Maternity Books

So I was on E Bay and I found some maternity books and decided to buy them.  I was again excited with the price of  ninety nine cents for all these books.  The books that I have purchased : The new father, one that will help Dale after the baby comes.  What to expect when you are expecting, the title on this one says it all.  Eating well when you're expecting,  what to expect in the first year of baby's life and also While Waiting.  Did anyone else purchase books while they were pregnant or now days do we just read off the internet.  What books did you purchase when you were waiting to become pregnant or when you were pregnant.  It was a great deal and I just couldn't let it pass me up!

Changing my life for the better

So the doctor called me and explained to me that I was not drinking enough water since my recent lab results.  I guess she wants me to drink eight to ten, eight ounce glasses of water.  I am not sure if I can drink that much. water.  Just think about it that is a lot of water to consume if you are not used to it.  I will do whatever they tell me to do for they do know whats good for me.  She also told me to stop drinking soda, which is fine because I never drink any soda. So that will be a very easy habit to stop, mostly when it is not a habit.  I really only drink orange juice and fruit punch powerade, yes I am a kool-aid kind of a girl.  So I am going to drink LOTS more water, even if I am in the bathroom more than expected.  I will change everything that is in my power if it will one day bring me a bundle of joy.  So I am going to start drinking more water... I had two eight ounce glasses today so I have approximately eight more to go.... Wish me luck as the bathroom will be calling my name as I reach my tenth glass of water.  How much water do you drink?

My new life with fertility

I have always thought that the reason that my husband Dale and I could never have kids is because he had a low sperm count.  I never even thought once it was me.  I feel terrible now, since we started fertility care it has always been me.  I was under the impression that because all my sisters had 2+ children that I have to be very fertile myself.  I guess it doesn't work that way.    We started fertility 7 months ago and from the start they never said one thing to my husband that it was him.  It was always me who had all the issues.  I am the one who had the bacteria infection, I am the one whose estrogen levels were too low to even carry a child, my progesterone levels were too low as well, it was my thyroid that  is slowing down, the list goes on and on.  Where to begin and where to end?  I am however grateful that we figured out a few of our problems.  It is a shame that I had to miscarry my first child to realize that I am the one with all the problems but I am completely ready for what life has to offer me.  I do however, have to consume many pills each day,  and make some changes in my diet.  I like to think for the better!  But I will bite this thing and the butt and I will start my perfect little family like I have always dreamed of...
This is my kitchen table with all the pills I need to take per day, some are once a day but most are twice to three times a day... I am totally dedicated because I know how it will change my life in the end :)