New Years Resolution 2012

After a long time searching my heart and soul, I realized there are two really good resolutions that I am going to work on in the year 2012................

Number one is FORGIVENESS.............

I am going to learn myself how to forgive people of what they did or what they will do to me in the upcoming year.  I am going to teach myself to just let things roll off my shoulders. 

Number two is TRUST...............

I will learn to trust my family and hope that everything that comes out of there mouths is not a lie but the truth.  I will learn my self not to lie or bend the truth!

These two resolutions might be easier said then done, I have had lots of issues with my family in the past, I really really have to be patient with my family and of course, I also have to be patient with myself.....

Blowing the top off....

I have been wondering when any of my sisters were going to come and see there niece.  So this morning I emailed or should I say I asked them on there face book page.  Let's just say..... they were FIRED UP!!  I was just trying to let them know how I was feeling about them not coming to see my little girl, but, I guess the table turned and they let me have it.  I guess it is not worth pushing the issue!
Sometimes I feel as if I was born into the wrong family.  I guess when your family has never been close it is too late to try when you are 34 years old.  Oh well, I tried. It is all up in there hands!
We will see if 2012 changes.  Who knows what will happen.  If not I guess I still have the most perfect family, that I could ever ask for.  We will see what happens!

My Sweet Gabriella Raye Richter

BFF

When I was young I always thought it would be cool to have a BFF (best friend forever).  I could never find a person that didn't already have a BFF.  I didn't want to be a BFF to someone who already had a BFF.  I know selfish right... Wrong I didn't want to share my BFF with anyone.  I never wanted to feel like the third wheel, but in the end I was.  Needless to say, I never had a BFF until 12 years ago when I met my husband.  

When he first asked me out I said, "No, I was busy this weekend"  then he would asked about the following weekend and the following weekend. Let's just say he asked me out 6 - 9 times before I agreed to going somewhere with him.   I did not know if I really wanted to date him.  He had long hair that he flipped under his hat.  Lets just say I was not attracted to him.  But, he was very persistent and I agreed to go somewhere with him.  Unsure of where we went on our first date.  It could have been bowling with friends, pool with friends, or maybe I think we went to the races but telling you the truth, I do not remember what we did on our first date.  I know terrible right.  I think it was because I didn't think of it as a first date.   I remember it was good whatever we did do.  Lets just say, we have been together ever since.  He is my best friend, he is my true love, he is the father of my child, and he is wonderful.  My husband is compassionate, caring, loving, beautiful inside and out, he is one heck of a catch if you know what I mean.  He is mine for life and I could not have a happier life.  He makes it wonderful to wake up next to. Without him I would be lost.  He is the best thing that has ever happened to me.  When I am sad, he builds me up. He knows exactly what to say to me on my down days.  He is my one true love.  My life is complete.  He completes me, and Gabriella completes me too. I have a perfect family.  And, finally after all these years I have my own BFF and I am truly happy.....

2011

It has been a great 2011!  The beginning of 2011 was wonderful, we found out we were pregnant with our little girl; Gabriella Raye.  That was the happiest day of our lives.  Well, besides the day she came into the world on October 20, 2011.  We finished building and have moved into our new log home that we have been working on for nearly 6 years.    I guess you could say we are still moving into our home for 6 months now.  We are slowly buying furniture for the new home.  We are buying all the furniture slowly so then we don't have to finance furniture.  Lets just say delayed gratification.  In July we finally moved in.  We couldn't be happier.  

Then October came and we gave birth to the most beautiful baby in the world... Maybe I am biased but its my child I can be :)  She was on a biliblanket and lights for a week.  Or should I say a LONG week.  She is still dealing with bilirubin issues but it is because of my breast milk.  It is called breast milk jaundice.  Minor issue, it should clear up and resolve in a matter of time.  

But any who, we gave birth to Gabriella Raye Richter at 832 pm on October 20th, 2011 after being in labor for nearly 16 hours and pushing for 1.5 hours our little bundle of joy came into this world.  What a happy day!  She is perfect, she is beautiful, and she is our's.  

Then in December, while being on Maternity leave, I have decided to go part~time.  I can not justify letting my baby girl go to day care for 150-200 dollars a week.  Yes, I said a week.  I personally am not fond of  childcare places anyways.  I just envision terrible things and I think for my own sake it will be better if I raise my own child.  I think if I raise my own child too, there will be less sickness I have to deal with in my family.  I know, they are out there for a reason, but if I can make it possible for me to raise my own child I am going to try with all my might.  We will see... how it goes, living one day at a time.

We are so excited to start the next chapter of our life.  We couldn't have asked for a better year.  So hats off to 2011. What a wonderful year it was.  and........

BRING ON 2012

Right Breast!

Looks like the lump is staying the same, Ultrasound was today.. The doctor is calling mammography specialist  to see if a breast feeding mother can have a mammogram.  I guess if they can't do a mammogram I will stop breast feeding, I do not want to procrastinate on such a touchy topic.  
Ultrasound today was inclusive.  Unsure of what they were looking at, they want me to get a mammogram.  Hope its just extra fatty tissue.  Better than the big C.  

Christmas

I am very blessed to have Dale and Gabriella in my life.  Thank you for all the wonderful blessings! Merry Christmas!