13 1/2 weeks

I am so glad the nausea is OVER.  I am nauseous once and a while but, before I hit the 12 week marker, I was nauseous all the time.  Before bed, during the middle of the night, before meals, while meat was cooking, after meals, all day at work, and just odd ball hours of the day.  I did not complain one bit, because I knew deep down in the back of my head that if I was nauseous, I was still pregnant.  I was so blessed and happy to have the nausea.  I know crazy right. Well, when you miscarry a child, its the little things that make it all worth while the second time around.  I am so grateful that I have a wonderful man who understands everything that I am going through with the pregnancy.  And he loves me, even if I am putting on a couple of extra pounds.  I will have to work out twice as hard, after I give birth to this wonderful joy of my life.  We are excited to become parents to our first child.  We have waited so long... But 100% worth it.

Baby Bedding

Dale and I decided to go out and look for bedding for the new little addition. We had so much fun.  I seen a lot for boys I liked and a lot for girls that I absolutely adored.  But, because we don't know what we are having we decided to pick out something for either sex.  I really like the jungle theme.  I think it is cute, I also figured the room is already painted green, so let not change it, because I would have to paint it.  I just don't want to be painting when I am pregnant.  But I figured the one we picked and bought would be PERFECT in the green room.  Tell me what you think!

Excitement!

I have been dying to tell all of you that Dale and I will be expecting our first child on HALLOWEEN!  Yes, we are seriously due on Halloween!  It will be one heck of a October for us.  We are over excited, about being pregnant.  We are three months and a week!  We can hardly wait to hold our new little addition in October.  But for now Happy Easter everybody and be safe!

Sad Sad Day!

On Friday, one of my co-workers went to the emergency room with a terrible problem.  She was 7 months pregnant and realized her baby stopped moving.  She went through all the work up and they sent her home.  The doctor told her that they had to come back on Saturday so they could induce her at the hospital.  She was going to give birth to her still born baby.  When the baby was born, the baby did not cry, but there was tears.  How devastating.  I am so heart broken, I feel for her and her family.  She needs a lot of prayers. She is a strong girl, but it can't be easy going through such a disappointment, and loss.  She had her baby shower the weekend before.  How can you come home and look at all the baby's things.  It has to be hard  not being able to hold her.  Not being able to comfort her when she is crying.  She named her child; Hannah Louise.  What a beautiful name for such a precious angel.  God guide them and bless them!

Fertility Care

We have been going to fertility care for about a year now.  Every other day is a lab draw~either it is my potassium that is too low or my thyroid that is too high.  My progesterone and Estrogen levels have been pretty steady lately but I do take supplements for the both of them.  It sucks to be 33 and have a body that doesn't allow you to produce your own progesterone or estrogen.  My body produces very little amounts of each.  But the medication has helped a great deal.  It is amazing that it has been a year ago when Dale and I decided to start going to fertility care and see what our issues were.  We wanted to find out why we are having such a hard time conceiving.  We have been married for 10 years and no child, and we never used any birth control.  We have learned a lot from this process.  It is a longer process than IVF or other procedures that they offer, but this way we are getting my body ready to care and carry a baby for 9 months.    I am replenishing my body of what nutrients and vitamins that I am missing.  It is an exciting exciting time in our life.  I am not sure what the next chapter in our life consists of but, I am ready for the adventure!!

Young and Pregnant

So I found out yesterday, that my niece is 5 weeks pregnant.  I would be totally happy for her if she wasn't 19,  if she didn't just have a baby in October, and if she had her drivers licenses.  I know I am so judgmental.  This is family I am talking about.  It drives me crazy that at such a young age you have no other dreams than to raise children.  When I was 19, I was thinking of my future, and at that time children were not a part of it.  But now days, kids are raising kids, and it is heart wrenching. .
My nieces baby was born in October, and I have heard she doesn't take very good care of the child.  Which breaks my heart into pieces. I guess one baby is too much for her, why would she be even thinking about having another one?  She doesn't even have a job, and her husband works for 2-5 hours a day at a farm.  Not very financial for this kind of situation.  But who am I to judge.
I was talking to my sister in law, the mother of my niece, she told me that my niece miscarried in the beginning of February.  But she is already 5 weeks pregnant.  Amazing, when I went through my miscarriage I was devastated.  I cried all the time, the last thing I thought about was sex.  I was an emotional wreck, but I guess everyone takes emotional situations in different ways.  It  just amazes me that my niece, had no feelings about  the miscarriage at all, which completely tears out my heart, because I remember how I dealt with the same situation.
I just wish that lessons in life weren't so hard, and people would learn a valuable lesson, without hurting others.  I just sometimes don't understand, one person can take such a touchy topic and not have any feelings about it..  Because I will always remember the child that I lost, because I loved her/him even if I only knew them for a little while.

Overly Excited!

This is my year, this is my year...
We are going to have a fantastic year...
I can't wait....